The moment you realize your son is a drug addict is a moment you will never forget. You start to feel guilty. You ask yourself what you did wrong as a mother. This happened to me five years ago when I first started noticing my son, Mark, acting apathetic and withdrawn. And when he went off to college, it got so much worse. He started abusing hydrocodone, and then it lead to oxycodone. He even used heroin a few times. I didn’t know what to do.
I gave him an ultimatum. I told him he had to go to rehab or my father and I would no longer pay for him to go to college. So he did go to rehab, but his heart wasn’t in it. Luckily, they got him off of the drugs, and they put him on Suboxone. I knew that he wasn’t in danger of overdosing after that. But once he left the rehab, months later, he had just transferred his addiction to Suboxone.
It wasn’t until he came to me of his own volition and said “I want to get help” that he was able to affect any real change. He went back to rehab for his Suboxone addiction. They helped him to get completely clean, and then he joined Narcotics Anonymous. This seemed to really help him, and for that, I am forever grateful to the NA program. He got a sponsor, and he started working the steps.
Over time in the program, I noticed he was not acting as selfishly. He was doing kind things for others, he was treating me better, he was even doing volunteer work once a month. If you are mother to an alcoholic or drug addict, it is imperative that you find somewhere where your son or daughter can get treatment. Unfortunately, if your son or daughter wants to get off Suboxone, there aren’t many options.
My journey as a mother has been a difficult one. Luckily, NA saved my son’s life. And for that, I am eternally grateful.
To read more of this mother’s story, look for our e-book, Mother in the Mirror, coming soon in fall 2017.